Grumpy

People, I am just grumpy. I've been trying to think of positive things to post about, things that are good, happy, warm and fuzzy type of things, and I just cannot come up with one thing. The few things that I am able to kind of think about, are just dumb. Or, I'm just not in a place that I even can write those happy warm and fuzzy things. I've just got a lot of crap I'm dealing with, from within and without, and not all of it is good. A lot of it is really yucky. And while there is no reason my blog has to be happy all the time, I'm just not articulate enough to put it all here. Because one, I don't want people to feel sorry for me. And two, this is like shouting it from the rooftops but yet at the same time hoping no one hears. I have a journal that I've been writing in, and that is helping. I have talked to people about it which is also a help. I have an appointment on Thursday (HOORAY!!!!) which should help.......but........we'll see when I get back to me. The me that is still there but is covered in s&#! right now and can't dig herself out because more s*^% keeps getting dumped on her.

Anyone got a shovel???????