I can't sleep

For the first time in a long time, I can't sleep. And I know why. My husbands father and sister are making things very difficult for us. His sister shouldn't even be involved, but she insists on sending these really horrible emails. His dad was trying to extort money out of us, by claiming the money he gave us six years ago was for his taxes. And by giving us that money, he wasn't able to pay his taxes. And so somehow we are responsible for those penalties. My husbands father is incredibly manipulative. He has not dealt with this honestly, and while he did give us the money, he is now insisting it was a loan. We are willing to pay it back, but his dad has behaved so abominably, that my husband isn't very willing to give him anything. I knew that I would be blamed for all of this. I saw that coming. But I don't think anything truly prepares you for the horrible things that people say. My heart is breaking for my husband. He never could see what his family really was like, especially his dad. And he has to deal with all this while trying to finish up and officer training course. Not to mention that yesterday was his birthday and his sister put in the subject line of her last email "hello and happy birthday matt (i love you)", but the email was full of things like "Terina you are a beautiful woman but I'm sorry you are not in the working world and have no idea whats going on as far as a workinig person. I may be laid off in July. You should stay in your nest and mind your own business." (I copied and pasted that, hence the spelling mistake) The feminist in me is roaring. And, admittedly, I am no feminist. It is so easy to say things like "sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me". But I feel like curling up into a ball in my bed and just crying and crying. Matt and I have decided to leave much sooner than originally thought, and I cannot wait to put thousands of miles between us and them. My husband has no desire to even see his family. While all the details of this would never fit into a blog post, like the reason why all of a sudden, six years later his dad is insisting it was a loan and not a gift, I know that Matt and I are making the right choices. It's just hard to be logical and unemotional. Especially at four, five and six am. The good thing that has come out of this, is that Matt and I have worked together, discussing everything (when we're able anyway), and making sure we're on the same page. I've let him respond to everything. What they don't know, is while they are trying to tear us apart, they are actually pushing us closer, and we are working as one. I will be away from my computer all day. It will be good for me, but I'm sure it will hold many more horrible emails by the end of the day. I just hope I'm up to all this. Lots and lots of deep breaths......