Thursday, January 8, 2009

Small gifts

I have anxiety issues. I really do. And I really think I need to go and get meds for them. I know what situations I need help with, and I do my best to warn those around me when I'm in those situations. Usually it has to do with my lack of control over things. Like the darn weather. Why can't it just be beautiful and sunny all the time????

So, apparently, there was an earthquake out here tonight. Sometime before 8pm. The last earthquake I was in was about five years ago, in the fourth floor of a hospital. I would not suggest being very high up in an earthquake. Anyway, it's been a while. Well, I didn't feel a thing. Not a thing. We're probably about 30 miles from the epicenter, and I didn't feel anything at all. I think I was in the middle of getting kids showered, bathed and jammied. And somehow in all that we missed it. Nothing shook, fell, or swung around here. I thought there might have been someone downstairs, but there wasn't anyone at all. And right now I'm grateful for small blessings. Because I probably would have totally freaked out and my kids would have freaked out because I was freaking out. I doubt this will happen every time. And the chances of us being in another earthquake while we're out here are pretty small. And now I just hope that if we do have another one, I'll have my meds.:)

1 comment:

Shelly! said...

I am so glad you didn't feel it. I kept waiting for the phone to ring with you on the other end- panicked. It's a small gift for sure.

It was also a gift for me as I feel like, as a parent, I have a responsibility to get past my distaste for them and to a place where I can react well. This way my kids won't freak out - which they did - because I did.

And yes, you really have anxiety issues. Aside from earthquakes. And I support your need for meds.