Monday, February 8, 2010

Just real quick

I have all of a few minutes to post something.

I am so busy this week.

I do not like being busy. Yes, it does make time seem to move faster. Yes, be anxiously engaged etc...... I still do not like it.

Part of the reason why I don't like it is because I am alone. There is no one that will do the dishes so that I don't have to because I have to find some preschool worksheets to print off. There isn't anyone else to help my son do his homework, or give them baths, or even watch them so that I can fulfill my responsibility at church. There isn't even anyone to tell me to relax, it will be just fine.

This is the crap part of deployment.

I tell myself this is not permanent, and that in a few months, this will all be over an done with. But then those few months seem like an eternity. And I feel so overwhelmed that I would rather just sit down and not get up for a while.

I hate these feelings. But they come. And they go. And then they come again. I guess it is all in how you deal with them. Do I sit down and whine and complain, or do I take a deep breath and start working on those treat bags for the preschool valentines party tomorrow? Well, first I write a blog post about it. And then take a deep breath and start getting things done.


LynMarie said...

I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. It would be hard to do things by yourself. Your a strong person and you're doing a great job. Keep it up. Do you have a visiting teacher that could help out?

JessicaEklund said...

Wish I was there to help give you a break!!! I would at least put the bags together with you while I listened to you talk about hating parts of being a single parent. Good attitude get'er done! Hang in there and know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you!